i’m not saying that it’s always going to be okay, because as everyone knows, it’s not. there are many obstacles that surface throughout the course of each individual’s journey; loss, heartache/break, fear, anxiety, hurt, sadness, frustration, rage, happiness, love, wonderment, and other indescribable feelings. however, do these obstacles not make us who we are? i’m a strong believer that everything happens for a reason, even if i really do not understand those reasons or do not agree with what is happening, it’s inevitable and our lives must adjust accordingly. from personal experience, i can most definitely say that it’s for the better. at the time, the pain, loss, hurt, whatever negative emotion is felt can be unbearable and it feels like there is no escape, that you’ll never feel happiness again. we’ve all been there and felt that. it either makes you a sheltered, untrusting person who ceases to put themselves out into the world because they’re so afraid of that happening again, or it gives you inner strength. i don’t know what drives me to keep myself together after the constant pain i’ve been through, but i still trust and i still keep an open heart because for the time being, i was exactly what someone needed. i, and the people i cared for who hurt me are young, we make mistakes, but i will never regret being the person who picked someone up off the ground from their lowest point and helped them move on. there is much negativity in the world, and it’s so easy to just give up and feel worthless, but i refuse to accept that. no matter what pain and loss i am put through, i will continue to care unconditionally for people who need it, whether they choose to keep me in their lives or not. you were all worth every awful emotion i felt, and i hope you always find a reason to smile.
